It's been ages since writing on my blog, and I'm so glad to be back!!! :) :)
Returning is like seeing an old friend after years of absence!!
Besides being a busy non-traditional college student, and working Approx. 25 hours a week at a preschool (the hours fluctuate based on the need) ... my life has been slowly changing. Being comfortable enough to write about such changes, requires being "real", and I admit I haven't wanted to be so courageous. :)
Like most other women, I am more concerned about being judged by others than saying what's really on my heart. Especially when potentially being judged why I'm no longer a stay-at-home-mom. For crying out loud, that in of itself can be the worst of "mommy selfishness" within certain segments of Christianity. Taking 9 credit hours of school, while working about 25 hours a week? Gasp! Why would any mother in her right mind DO such things?!?!
Well ... I certainly question my sanity at times, but the reason behind my "enthusiasm" for school and work is because I'm entering a new season of singleness and will be a divorced woman in the future. It's taken about eight months to accept this reality, and I figured that in order for my future blog posts to make any sense, I needed to be "real". :)
Yes, I would prefer continuing to be a stay-at-home-mom, but sometimes God simply doesn't make sense (though I acknowledge His perfect Sovereignty).
*sigh*... ok.... I feel better now that I've admitted the above, and can now breathe. :)
During a Community Bible Study Leaders' Retreat, November 2015 (before getting my present job at the preschool), the following poem reminded me that no matter what issues I may have with another person ... instead of "getting even" or being a "Bible Thumper" ... my first reactions need to be love-filled. Not naïve or being trampled-on, but courageous.
This says it all!!
And ... I really should return to my homework now. lol! :)
Writing is therapeutic, but requires time. And since I don't have extra time due to school, work & family, I will share my new life & thoughts within smaller posts. At least now you know what to expect. :)
Until next time .... please find someone to encourage, because we are surrounded by hurting people and often don't know it.